Walking By Faith & Living In Hope

1. 19
   Feb
   

   Role Models

   ‘m sure everyone has their own role model, someone they look up to with all their heart. Someone that reflects their own potential. Someone they love. I know I do.
   
   And as much as we love to watch them grow, discover, create, live… It KILLS us to
   see them fall. Everything they’ve ever lived for, everything YOU’VE ever lived for…you watch someone else throw it away. And not only are we crushed from the let down, we are BROKEN hearted because WE LOVED them…and now they have to suffer. Suffer from the consequences of one wrong move. ONE WRONG MOVE.
   
   One night can change your life.
   One night can ruin your life…Your life and someone elses…and someone elses and someone elses..
   One choice can break a thousand hearts…and take yours for good.
   One choice can lead to you another life, another heart…the same lost flesh..
   To be so gone, to be so lost, to be so OVER..to NOT EVEN be able to cry on your wedding night. Not even be able to SOB your life away..To mourn in sorrow of your new beginning…
   Your life you once had hope for.. the life you once wanted to do great things.. The life you are now throwing away.. and all sooooooooo numb that you cant even be sad about it anymore…An example of HOW STRONGLY you can be COMPLETELY changeddddd into the person you now need to be.. Numb to the horrible life you now HAVE TO LIVE.
   “Who was i..?” “Did i have a heart of my own before this.?” “its been so long now that i can’t even remember who i once was..”
   
   It hurts so bad to see this.. Someone i looked up.. Someone who REFLECTED who i wanted to be.. Someone who reminded me of myself..
   How come i get to sit back and watch this..watch someone i LOVE suffer in regret of a human mistake….while I STILL HAVE A CHANCE TO DO IT RIGHT.. ??
   
   Why me.?. I would take the place of that person’s life.. in trade for a second chance for THEM.
   Because i love them. Always will… But who do i love.. Them? Or who they used to be?
   Is there life over, or do they still have a chance? Is there hope.?
   
   
   
   Yes.
   IF I, who has more faith in them, than they do.. HAVE faith in them..
   HOW MUCH MORE FAITH does GOD have for his child..??
   
   It’s not over. There is STILL HOPE. and i still look up to this person.. Because I KNOW this person has the power to be the person she once was..the power to GO TO GOD for this. When someone is lost, GOD will show them the was. .
   And this person knows this. And this is why i still look up to them.