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FebCraving
Do you know what I crave? I crave love, an unselfish 100% committed love. Not to care about the stresses or turmoil that it may cause, but someone to take the extra 10 minutes to stop and say babe tell me whets wrong, I love you too much to see you hurting… I’m so freakin tired of being alone, it’s the most painful and yet humbling thing that I have to experience. I wish every day to be something that someone one day will treasure, and yet every time I turn around my wish is slowly vanishing into some unorthodox lost detention… I wish to be free of such conviction of self worthlessness but am unable to find the key to unlock my freedom. I search day and night and am always told how wonderful I am and how someone would be so lucky to be with someone just like me, all I can sit and think is well then why not me, what outstanding flaw do I possess that no one wants to even attempt to fix. Whets so severally wrong with me, I know I’m overweight but being so has given me a heart to love people more than anything else. I just wish to be loved, that’s all I want… I know people can say they care about me all they want but it’s not the same. I want to have someone to tell all my troubles to and know that they won’t get upset because I am not sharing the conversation and devoting a percentage of the conversation to their own trials. If only someone would understand the deep lengths I would go to be with someone long term, maybe if someone would only give me the chance they would see. I am not perfect, I am far from it but I am willing more than anyone I know to try and to change into whatever circumstance is needed to make the other person in my life happier. Just look at my friends and close loved ones, do you not see what I attempt to do for them even when it’s not in my own best interest… I know I make mistakes more than I make successes but if someone would try, it would mean the world to me.
