February 2011
1 post
September 2010
1 post
Rawr..
Last night was the first night in four months that I haven’t slept next to Scott, it sucked royally because he wasn’t there it was cold and just plain miserable.. I HATE IT!!! Rawr we just need to get a place of own so that we can be together and not have to continuously worry about stepping on peoples toes because one of is with the other one and thats not where we actually live so...
August 2010
1 post
Scared..
I could completely fall off the face of the earth and no one would ever know where I am but the point is I dont want to, I’m perfectly happy, safe and content where I am. I have the open option few others have to completely start over with a new job, place to live, people who know nothing about me and I could totally start from scratch but I wont I’ve become...
March 2010
27 posts
The Lonely Joker
The man that hides his feelings behind the painted face, no one can understand the pain the joker has to brace, he has a gift to make people laugh, cherish and smile, so he puts on a charade, cracks a joke, for that is his lifestyle, But who is the joker deep inside, the cure for all the frowns? but that’s not how people see him, all they see is a clown, after every show the joker goes...
This Dream
What can I give you that you don’t already deserve? You are all I want to see so, why so I turn? Shatter my emotions, take them all away All my life I’ve tried All my life I’ve failed I promise to stand by your side from here to eternity As we begin to understand it is are hearts that define What has meaning in life. By inability to understand When I wake from this dream...
“.When I Die Will They Remember Not I Did, But What I Haven’t Done.”
“.But Seldom Do These Words Ring True, When I’m Constantly Failing You....”
“.Like The Angel That You Are, You Laugh Creating A Lightness In My Chest.”
“.Don’t Close Your Eyes, What If It All Disappears In The Shadows That...”
“If My Hand Could Block The Sun, Would We Ever Wake Up? And If I Turn Back All...”
You Should Know
that you’re just a temporary fix This is not rooted with you it don’t mean that much to me You’re just a filler in the space that happened to be free How dare you think you’d get away with trying to play me yeaaay
My Tattoo... →
Hope Tattoo
Designed as a representation of the important flaws in life. It represents a constantly changing heart, cautiously guarded, yet equally open to new experiences. It represents my constant love for life, a desire to share my heart with others, and is a reminder that with every transition in life - comes a great opportunity for personal growth.
“looking into the stars every night, is as close to touching my dreams as I can...”
“Swinging is as close as I’ll get to flying without machine.”
You never realize how much you love someone until they’re gone.
Love? It’s kind of complicated, but I’ll tell you this… the second you’re willing to make yourself miserable to make someone else happy, that’s love right there
The first time I saw you, I knew it was true, I’d love you forever and that’s what I’ll ...
I fell asleep in your arms, dreamt I was yours, woke up and found myself in a world where everything is nonsense - Wonderland. It felt so real; my dream. When I woke up, reality didn’t hit me. Instead, Wonderland did. I felt as if I was falling into your arms the whole time. Little did I know I was falling down the rabbit hole. I missed you instantly, I couldn’t help but cry. The smell...
3:48AM a wrist a razor an addiction and a side of broken heart”
Love Hurts But sometimes it’s a good hurt And it feels like I’m alive Love sings When it transcends the bad things Have a heart and try me ‘cause without love I won’t survive
“I will be strong even if it all goes wrong; I just wish you realized, I really...”
“Love is completely blind, and selfish. You have to remember to do whats best for...”
“Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them...”
Better Tomorrow
Substance abuse is just the mind trying to cope with your body’s predicament. Once you realize why you drink, why you smoke, why you choke down those pills. Once youv’e identified the truth you can move forward to help yourself. To do this you have to face everything you’ve done, the poeple youv’e hurt and those who have hurt you. You have to forgive and ask for...
Everythings Ok?
Everything Is ok,
Until the songs comes on we used to play.
Got me thinking about the days,
Where we could just lay,
For hours in the grass,
like windless flowers,
Go ahead get the stash,
Cause this world is ours.
To conqeor Together.
Nothing could be better,
Than you lying next to me,
Looking up so innocently,
Able to see inside me,
Not just what I want people to see.
Maybe...
Decode
My lips havnt moved for hours Whats wrong? this tense illuminates benign numb Feel stuck to the floor one piece Music blasting deaf to change but not blind To the outline of your lips in my mind I wish I could fly, to keep an eye on whats precious but not mine motion sicknes kicks in when I breathe without you...
Tears On Her Pillow
She said:
I wonder when it will be my day
Cause I’m not too far from breaking down
All iv’e got are screams inside
but some how they come out in smile
And i’m wondering if I will always feel this way
And maybe youv’e fallin’ down
Maybe you just took the long way home
Baby you could never love you, like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror...
Waiting
Waiting to sleep
Waiting for memories
Waiting for this movie to stop playing
So i can close my eyes
Just to dream
Of her eyes opening to mine
Waiting for sleep
So i can start waiting all over tomorrow
Live for exhaustion
Just to sleep
Still…waiting
I'm Torn
I should’ve never fallen for you. I made a promise to someone else. Now that promise is broken, and I’m not sure that the someone else, is going to forgive me for it. I just want him to comeback, comeback and take me away from here. This wretched place, where I can’t breathe right, think straight, or keep from crying at night without you :( Help me, COMEBACK. And to the person I...
“feels like I’m caught somewhere between heaven and hell”
Mary Jane
I fell in love today with this beautiful girl, I couldn’t see straight the room just twirled and swirled. This love isn’t the kind where you trip and fall. It’s the kind where she catches you, and you melt in her palm. You lay there in a puddle, but can’t close your eyes. Cause you’ll see colors and stars and feel like you can fly. And it’s not like you’re...
February 2010
18 posts
“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”
– Elenanor Roosevelt.
“I’d give my life for just one night in your arms, one more night full of...”
“Bury all you secrets in my skin ((Come away with innocence…and leave me...”
“good girls are just better than bad girls; because we don’t get caught ♥”
– me =]
But, I still love you
I really tried so hard to hide What I really feel inside I tried to show you that I’m fine That my heart is really mine But even though how much I try There is one thing I can’t deny The fact that hey, I love you still And that is what I really feel I know that I should put this to end And accept that we’re only just friends I don’t know why I can’t do Or should I say I don’t want to? ...
“Life has to be lived in forward motion, but can only be understood by looking...”
– My Daddy
Role Models
‘m sure everyone has their own role model, someone they look up to with all their heart. Someone that reflects their own potential. Someone they love. I know I do. And as much as we love to watch them grow, discover, create, live… It KILLS us to see them fall. Everything they’ve ever lived for, everything YOU’VE ever lived for…you watch someone else throw it away. And...
Nature Of Truth; Significance Of Faith
“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” HEBREWS 11:1
“Cogito Ergo Sum” latin for “I think, therefor i am” …. Something Descates came up with, in the answer to all the rationalist rhetorical questions about truth… “I know, therefore it’s true.” Is that a true statement, or just a belief?...
“Be that person no one else is willing to be, make a difference.”
YouthARISE
Tonight, Matt spoke and during his sermon he was talking about Gods authentic love and how he is the ultimate love beyond anything else which is so completely true. Well he started talking about love and he looked straight at me and was saying how people in life just are searching for love constantly for someone to just say (while staring at me as though he was speaking it straight to me and for...
Craving
Do you know what I crave? I crave love, an unselfish 100% committed love. Not to care about the stresses or turmoil that it may cause, but someone to take the extra 10 minutes to stop and say babe tell me whets wrong, I love you too much to see you hurting… I’m so freakin tired of being alone, it’s the most painful and yet humbling thing that I have to experience. I wish every day to be something...
For my father..
You know what screw you! I’ve done nothing but try to help you every time that I could!!! You owe me so much and I never hold it against you but every time that I ever even needs to ask you for the smallest bit of understanding and gratitude it’s like pulling teeth! I realize that I haven’t been that great of a communicator lately and I know that I sometimes have had the wrong priorities but...
“ Love Is Invisible But Can’t Be Hidden” “Don’t Spoil...”
“When daylight turns to a darkened hue, The lovely stars hinting at U, Ur heart...”
“Beauty is a mere smile. Love is a smile that warms the heart. Beauty is but skin...”
I don’t care about your past. I only know that I love you. What we share is meant to last.
“When terror surrounds me You keep me from harm, You are my hiding place”
“knowledge speaks, wisdom listens ♥”
January 2010
43 posts
Memories
As I lay on my bed And stare into space My mind drifts back To the memory of your face The memory of the first time That you smiled at me And made me dream of you And what we could be The memory of the night That we shared our first kiss That feeling of wonder That feeling of bliss The memory of the moment That you said “I love you” And promised me one day That...
I Loved You Too
So many thoughts, I don’t know where to begin, I’ll start from my heart, and what I feel within. I still have feelings, which haven’t changed, because when you left me my life was re-arranged. I used to cry so many times a day, but lately those tears have been fading away. I am hoping that my brighter day soon will come, and maybe, just maybe, I’ll find that...